I think I could be the most trash player to have two 1st place palmares
Or one of the most essential parts in those successes. As long as your regimental mates acknowledge the work you can do behind the scenes, that's the recognition I have personally always aimed at. You don't need randoms cretins (regardless of how relevant they can be community-wise) to tell you if you deserve these palmares or not, the key has always been to play with people who value you and that you value back.
But pretty sure you know that already.