This is a thread for people too let out their feelings without being judged and if they want discuss it with other people.
I will start us off. I have been back in school and out of outpatient (kek) for about 2 months now, all was gucci until one week ago my gf attempted to commit suicide, thankfully she failed but now she is receiving treatment and I haven't been able to see her :(
Instead of going to school for about 4 weeks I went to a treatment facilityThis is a thread for people too let out their feelings without being judged and if they want discuss it with other people.
I will start us off. I have been back in school and out of outpatient (kek) for about 2 months now, all was gucci until one week ago my gf attempted to commit suicide, thankfully she failed but now she is receiving treatment and I haven't been able to see her :(
What do you mean with this?
Also that sucks dude hope you can meet her soon.
That's rough man
My depressing stuff:
My dad is the kinda guy who doesn't show any emotions and is pretty tough. I was raised in that same environment, except that my mom helped me develop emotion and shit. I never show anything, I've never had a best friend, I never talk to anyone about my thoughts, I never cry, I handle everything in my head and that's where it stays, I've told only one person my inner most thoughts and memories, and she shit on me (too nice).. It really tortures me sometimes because of how much I think about and process shit. There's things my family have no idea about, and that I will probably take to my grave. I don't feel close to my parents. I love em, but going to college and shit has made them seem even more distant. It's killing me though, I feel so alone and like I can't confide anything with anyone. I'm what you would call a legitimate "nice guy" so I've had horrible luck with the ladies (no fedora or neckbeard here btw). So basically Im frustrated and tired of having to keep everything in, and having to deal with girls who have been damaged by fuck bois and don't trust any guys now. I've met some really amazing people at school though, and have had many experiences that I wouldn't trade for anything.
Rant done.
So thank you NW for providing a distraction from all this. My parents don't understand that and I don't want to explain it, but when you over process things as much as I do, you need something to give your mind a break
It's okay we hate you to. :-*D'aawwwwww you shouldn't have :-*
>Haven't been in relationship since the 5th grade and that one lasted a few weeksI like people I met on the internet more than I like my own friends. GG.
>loneliness.jpg
>noonelikemeitfeels@gmail.com
>god left me unfinished
>why can't I take it seriously
I actually do like people I've met on this forum and in NW better than any person I've met in real life to be honest. Danks guize for always making me hate myself
Rarley get to see my family in England, can't usually afford to go back.That is some stupid moment too :/
Haven't had a girlfriend since 6th grade.
Grandmother died a few months ago, still hard to believe it happened.
Like Siwi, I'm not open about emotions of feelings.
The girl I've liked for the past three years got asked to the dance right infront of me.
Rarley get to see my family in England, can't usually afford to go back.That is some stupid moment too :/
Haven't had a girlfriend since 6th grade.
Grandmother died a few months ago, still hard to believe it happened.
Like Siwi, I'm not open about emotions of feelings.
The girl I've liked for the past three years got asked to the dance right infront of me.
I'm conflicted about this thread. :P
I'm conflicted about this thread. :P
Me too.
I want to be rude, shit it up and insult people like the other threads I frequent but then I don't.
Guys, try not to be belittling here, we're trying to keep this thread friendly, rather than pushing people away from it.
Did you just say slavery, depending on the form of it, is dank? I mean, we're not talking about the kinky side here. He still had a shitty experience.
Tbh being a slave in Ancient Greece was pretty dank if compared to what happened to slavery as a concept later on...
When I think of slavery, I think of the 50+% death rate for workers in the Tangunyika Railroad in Africa in leate 19th/ early 20th century. That sobers me up.
That in the US you can easily buy automatic rifles and ammo and commit school shootings.
Also how both the US and the Uk treat there veterans like shit, now a days.
But in all serious. I found out a while ago that before my dad took his own life, back when I was 11, he asked to see me, he had not seen me in 3 years. 2 hours after he found out he would not be seeing me he took his own life.You had no control over that. You were 11 and I'm guessing someone (your mom or caretaker) made the decision to not allow you to see him. You can't take responsibility for that, you didn't even know.
So yeah living with the fact that you contributed to your dads death.
Guys, try not to be belittling here, we're trying to keep this thread friendly, rather than pushing people away from it.Why does everyone treat the mods like shit. I don't see any problem with then joining in the discussion and making sure people aren't being ignorant assholes to people that are just discussing life. Thanks tiki
It's funny how people who believe in religions that are centered around unconditional love are some of the most hostile and cancerous people when your beliefs differ from theirs. One reason I've given up all religion (agnostic) is because I don't want to be labeled as a Christian or anythjng like that because of the automatic assumptions and stereotypes that come from saying thatSpoilerAw Waste I'm sorry to hear that. Recently I've gone through some shit myself personally.
Ever since I've taken a break from NW, my life picked up. And now it's gone to shit again.
I pretty much had a relationship burn, my first relationship of course. I chose to end it, it wasn't going anywhere. I just didn't feel safe or comfortable going on, she had cheated on me a couple weeks back and my feelings for her kinda died. I dunno why I gave her a second chance, but I mean it's not like she did anything bad to me again. Just gets so possessive, got upset when I didn't reply to "lolyes" or would make a small twitter joke to a friend (being a girl). But I mean this was kinda the least of my worries.
I had/have a friend I've known for five years and this whole girl thing has torn us apart. He'd lie to me and step on me to try and get to her, she ended up wanting me in the end but then she cheated on me with another guy (not even this friend, so..). I broke up with her last Monday and he immediately started pursuing a relationship with her and I got mad. He ended up taking things personal with ad hominem attacks against my personal beliefs (not going to post text chats because pretty sure FSE wouldn't be cool with that but he'd say "fuck you" to me and basically say I'm retarded for being an atheist and that as a human being I'm worthless). In the past he'd ask me about why I didn't believe in a god and thought I was deconverting him when I gave him my own thoughts on it and presented facts about evolution and carbon dating and the whole nine yards.
It's kinda funny too. You think you're really good friends with someone and then they shit on you over a girl. A month or so back he was suicidal over the same girl. He'd liked her for a very long time but her emotions were all over the place (kinda another reason why I decided not to continue with it, she would be flirty with lots of guys and lead them on and confuse everyone). He told me I had saved his life and that this girl couldn't give a shit less (she responded to him when all this was over "lol", idk if it's a coping method or what) but the main point was that I had to step in and tell him deep shit about me.
The past year I've gone through a maddening depression. Coming out of religion, I developed a "second internal conscious" if you will. I talk to myself to fill the void I once thought was God talking to me. Recently I've had the guts to actually step up to myself and admit I'm selectively bisexual, and in the past it's almost driven me to self harm. I came face to face with a razor once, and I'm telling you, that shit's scary. You have the overwhelming desire that pain is pleasure and all forms of pleasure is pain. Society rejects you and you take it out on yourself.
I had to tell him all these things about me to make him relate, he had a knife in his hand and was talking to me about "meeting his Creator" because she wouldn't be with him, instead she was with me at the time. Finally he broke down and put it away, but it was one of the scariest moments of my life.
But on top of all these things, I've still forgiven him. I've made my own mistakes, I realize that. He apologized the other day for saying mean things about my beliefs and me as a person. People like my good friends from NW in the past helped me through a lot of this. Jack Spears and Howe, namely. Just now I realize that some people aren't necessarily who you think they are. And that in the future I need to stay strong because, I'm telling you, this fucking place I live in. Tis but Hell.
So yeah, I remember the happy NW days lol. ;)[close]
But in all serious. I found out a while ago that before my dad took his own life, back when I was 11, he asked to see me, he had not seen me in 3 years. 2 hours after he found out he would not be seeing me he took his own life.I'm sorry man :( maybe your Dad just wanted to say goodbye I'm not sure, it's not your fault though, as my good friend Forest said, shit happens. Which sadly is very true in this world which many of us had learned the hard way.
So yeah living with the fact that you contributed to your dads death.
It makes me sad that this forum and game drives me away from my irl friends. Fucked up addiction. Allthough I'm getting less and less active.
Finals week for a school quarter and still having homework to juggle one more week Q_QUgh, don't remind me
This doesn't fall over 'depression' but NW's been a great distraction from everything that happened to me in real life :).
Sowwy :-XI still love you
This doesn't fall over 'depression' but NW's been a great distraction from everything that happened to me in real life :).
Same here bud.
I don't think that really mattersThis doesn't fall over 'depression' but NW's been a great distraction from everything that happened to me in real life :).
Same here bud.
Aren't you homeschooled tho :o
I don't see any problem with them joining in the discussion and making sure people aren't being ignorant assholes to people that are just discussing life. Thanks tiki
Why does everyone treat the mods like shit.
Yay :DSowwy :-XI still love you
I don't think that really mattersThis doesn't fall over 'depression' but NW's been a great distraction from everything that happened to me in real life :).
Same here bud.
Aren't you homeschooled tho :o
Anarchism made me feel less alone and insane in my feelings, and start looking for the active rebellions that take place daily. Having knowledge about the potential for betterness can give you reason to despise your existence, or be the anchor that keeps you moving toward a better world.
Things won't always be how they are now.
I guess what it really comes down to is whether or not anarchism awoke you from zombiedom, or if you felt awake, lost, and alone before eventually finding anarchism. For me, it was the latter.
I feel like I've made concrete improvements in my life, and the lives of my friends, family, and partners, and the hundreds of youth I volunteer with, because of the way anarchism informs my perspective and actions.
...just because I'm doing online classes doesn't mean I don't have a life, Commissar...That's my bad, it was directly implied. I have a couple cousins that are home-schooled, and I had to complete my exit project on their daily routine, along with any activities they might do. This gave me a greater insight on the matter and the pros+cons.
...thank you for revealing a secret I've tried to keep away from the FSE community for 2 years now almost...I was never told once it was a secret, and I never deemed whether you participating in public-schooling or home-schooling was that big of a deal. To each his own.
...99% of the people I have told this to automatically think that I am either one of two things. The first is a dumbass and the second is a troubled kid...I wouldn't worry too much about what someone online thinks about your education. :)
SpoilerI was homeschooled from 5th grade til my sophomore year of highschool and then I started taking college classes. But I know the feel Superbad, whenever you say you are homeschooled people automatically think you are either SUPER sheltered, retarded or super smart(less so on this one).. My brothers and I were neither of those although we knew tons of kids like that. It does make making friends really hard though, since you aren't forced to socialize like at public schools. We had plenty of friends through sports and our neighborhood though[close]
Marijuana makes you masturbate. Do you know what the Lord says about masturbation, little Johnny? It's a sin.
#killallhomeschoolers
I was homeschooled from 5th grade til my sophomore year of highschool and then I started taking college classes. But I know the feel Superbad, whenever you say you are homeschooled people automatically think you are either SUPER sheltered, retarded or super smart(less so on this one).. My brothers and I were neither of those although we knew tons of kids like that. It does make making friends really hard though, since you aren't forced to socialize like at public schools. We had plenty of friends through sports and our neighborhood though
Why did you guys get homeschooled?
I'm not even sure. I think my parents just wanted us to get the best education possible and they thought homeschooling would be better than public school shytstemI was homeschooled from 5th grade til my sophomore year of highschool and then I started taking college classes. But I know the feel Superbad, whenever you say you are homeschooled people automatically think you are either SUPER sheltered, retarded or super smart(less so on this one).. My brothers and I were neither of those although we knew tons of kids like that. It does make making friends really hard though, since you aren't forced to socialize like at public schools. We had plenty of friends through sports and our neighborhood though
Why did you guys get homeschooled?
Well, tbh, the American public school system is pretty shit.+1 know from experience
Since this thread kind of lets me tell my life story for the past 3-5 years.
So I went to a new school thinking I could make new friends. Well after 2 years there it sorta went downhill. I got injured, stress fractured my spine (yes i did do it) and as well as my shoulder blade. Now I was a baseball pitcher, I got scouted etc in 8th grade for teams around the nation and for Team USA. Well as well with my spine breaking, my grades faltered. I asked one of my gradeschool crushes to homecoming freshman year (last year) and I felt like I had a huuuuge crush on her, anyways I am sorta a shy guy and I dont have the guts to ask her out. I am also 6'1 and around 220 lbs. I feel like I am overweight and I have lost pretty much all my friends starting freshman year and definately this year (sophomore). I am a depressed teenager, I cry usually every night and want to kill myself. I feel like I dont have a purpose in life anymore, since ive broken my spine and cant play baseball anymore. My grades suck ass and ive lost ALL my friends. Ive had thoughts of cutting but really havent gotten there yet. I had thought about going to an Ivy League college but know im looking at like my state college because ive turned dumb lol. This game and Vine is kinda my escape from society and I guess it makes me feel a tad better.Anyways most of the time I hate my life, and I want it to end because I feel like I have no purpose in life.
So ya, thats it.
Um this is serious stuff pal :P*snip*
Um this is serious stuff pal :P*snip*
-_- "lel" suicidal thoughts are no joking matter. It doesn't matter where or who people go to.Um this is serious stuff pal :P*snip*
*snip*-_- "lel" suicidal thoughts are no joking matter. It doesn't matter where or who people go to.Um this is serious stuff pal :P*snip*
I hate everyone around me pretty much, so the Internet is more of an escape for some than just some online gaming forum. Every step to communication is important.
And I've met some of the most accepting people off FSE. Sure there are trolls like everywhere, but at the very least I feel more comfortable here than irl.
mmkayy, I chatted with Rebel for 45 minutes because I genuinely care. And I have my own stuff on my plate too.I know I'm just being an ass cuz I don't have any friends pls be my friend
Just saying all the support is needed when you're in that sort of state. Howe's helped me himself.
It's k I don't have that many either hehe.let's compare anti depression meds I take 69mg of some white pills that don't work lel
#RejectsUnite
smoke wed 4 depression
smoke wed 4 depression
or when you want your girlfriend to dump you
currently trying the highasfuckeverytimeiseeher method, seems to be working.
wow Sven how dare you treat m'lady like that. As a stage 3 athiest with an IQ of 143 you should tell me where this m'lady lives so I can woo her with my gent(le)men behavior and collection of katanas. Idk (stands for I don't know for you non reddit folk) if I can stand this sexual abuse of m'ladysmoke wed 4 depression
or when you want your girlfriend to dump you
currently trying the highasfuckeverytimeiseeher method, seems to be working.
smoke wed 4 depression
fuck the Dutch Amirightsmoke wed 4 depression
It actually is prescribed in the Netherlands as anti-depressant. Small quantities, but it works really well.
Fuk the dutch but Dutches are good amirite huehuehueMarijuana is evil it makes u gay meaniesSpoiler(https://www.fsegames.eu/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.rapgenius.com%2Febf0ebb52b71788e2bea64bd5162e1b4.500x342x1.jpg&hash=073deda547efe5d6f52142af91a48e489279b774)[close]
Fuk the dutch but Dutches are good amirite huehuehueSpoiler(https://www.fsegames.eu/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.rapgenius.com%2Febf0ebb52b71788e2bea64bd5162e1b4.500x342x1.jpg&hash=073deda547efe5d6f52142af91a48e489279b774)[close]
Dutch support fascist Ukraine government by flying passenger plane over war zone and blowing it up to make freedom fighters in Donetsk look bad+1
Can you even roll?
Dutch support fascist Ukraine government by flying passenger plane over war zone and blowing it up to make freedom fighters in Donetsk look bad
This thread went downhill quickly.. :-\Yeah, I plan on locking it soon because of some people who don't "understand" things
This. High school anywhere is literally cancer, getting out of this fuckin place is what keeps me goingUm this is serious stuff pal :Pmaybe if you're that emotionally unstable you shouldn't seek an online gaming forum for support top Lel
This.
But all the same I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time, Rebel. I hope once you get through high school things will start to get better (they will, as anyone who has graduated will tell you). Just gotta wait it out and this part of your life will be behind you.
i agree with you Theodin. I can almost go to work happy about that. Already what i want as my job 8)This. High school anywhere is literally cancer, getting out of this fuckin place is what keeps me goingUm this is serious stuff pal :Pmaybe if you're that emotionally unstable you shouldn't seek an online gaming forum for support top Lel
This.
But all the same I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time, Rebel. I hope once you get through high school things will start to get better (they will, as anyone who has graduated will tell you). Just gotta wait it out and this part of your life will be behind you.
I think I'm one in a million, like I actually really like High school, now sure I don't enjoy homework, waking up early, tests and learning completly useless information that only matters for standardized tests that are taken near the end of the year but if you ignore all that, I really enjoy it. I know being a freshman might have something to do with it but still..
Upperclassmen get to pick their gym classes first and since my last name starts with an S I'm always one of the last freshmen to pick classes, it makes me cri evry tiemI think I'm one in a million, like I actually really like High school, now sure I don't enjoy homework, waking up early, tests and learning completly useless information that only matters for standardized tests that are taken near the end of the year but if you ignore all that, I really enjoy it. I know being a freshman might have something to do with it but still..
I love high school. I think the one I go to is academically terrible, but on the bright-side, I'm a senior that only has to go from 7:15am to 10:30am every day until I graduate. Enjoy going from 7:15am to 2:15pm everyday, underclassmen suckers! Bwahahahahahah
This. High school anywhere is literally cancer, getting out of this fuckin place is what keeps me going
I think I'm one in a million, like I actually really like High school, now sure I don't enjoy homework, waking up early, tests and learning completly useless information that only matters for standardized tests that are taken near the end of the year but if you ignore all that, I really enjoy it. I know being a freshman might have something to do with it but still..I love hs - the homework and stuff
Worky worky. Mucha better. Let ze money come
2 frickin jobs :o
I'm luckier in Canada.. 7,000 average tuition, #highertaxes2 frickin jobs :o
Yea.. first year of college I had to work in retail, and part time at a marketing firm, long hours and still wasnt enough money, until I got to my 3rd year in uni where I got a much better paying part time job and didnt need the other one. Oh well, teaches the hard work ethic early.. no vacation/ barely any sick days/long hours :DSpoilerI am not complaining, im in AFROTC and they pay 80% of my tuition :-X[close]
So yea, be prepared to work your ass off right after high school, dont neglect education, as its hard to make it
From what I've seen, college is 100 times better than highschool. Most of the shit they teach you in highschool to "prepare" you for college is bullshit. Go to class, do the homework, study and you do fine. Ive seen some of the work that kids in IB (advanced highschool here) classes had to do and college is so much easier. I'm even in my schools engineering program as a junior and it's easy to party like a freshman and maintain my grades
Highschool sucks, just gotta get though it
He said IB is harder than A-levels, not the other way around. Also it's only 150 hours of CAS over the 2 years, 50 per section, and CAS honestly wasn't that bad (just the reflections were retarded).From what I've seen, college is 100 times better than highschool. Most of the shit they teach you in highschool to "prepare" you for college is bullshit. Go to class, do the homework, study and you do fine. Ive seen some of the work that kids in IB (advanced highschool here) classes had to do and college is so much easier. I'm even in my schools engineering program as a junior and it's easy to party like a freshman and maintain my grades
Highschool sucks, just gotta get though it
lol the only reason why IB is easier is because you have 6 subjects to cover along with CAS and the TOK essay. You may think it's desirable, but believe me, 300 hours of bs UCAS over two years is anything but. In fact, I've seen most people who have had a choice do A-Levels instead of IB (this is for the UK), simply because they wanted to just do their subject and not pseudo-philosophical bs around it.
I saw this thread and i was like NAHHHH, but then i started to read some of the stuff people posted and how open a lot of you guys are being and i truly admire that.Your Mother should of divorced him immitietly after that incident.
Alright so here it goes
My father used to be a drug addict, any money he made was spent on drugs. Some nights you could tell he was high as a kite. Other times, when we were low on money and he couldn't get his fix you could see his anger. There were times that he would hit me over small shit, i don't remember what they were though. There was one time that i do distinctly remember. We got into an argument, i was sick and stayed home from school but my father refused to believe i was sick, he thought i was playing hookie so he wanted me to work all day, shoveling snow, cleaning the house, ect. I told him that i was sick and shouldn't be doing anything and that all i wanted to do was go back to bed, i told him i would do it when i was better. He was convinced and started to get very angry. He began to come at me, i knew that that meant he was going to start hitting me, so i ran. I ran to the back porch and closed the door. He said fine and locked the door. Know that this was the middle of winter and i was sick, i had nothing but a hoodie, shirt and pajamas. He locked me out there for an hour, eventually i started to bang on the door. Nothing. I then picked up a broom and started hitting the wooden end of it against the door. I thought that if i made enough noise that he would eventually get annoyed enough to let me in. Turns out i hit the end of the broom against the door so hard that it put a hole in the door. When he saw this, he came out and starting punching my chest, he forced me onto the floor and screamed in my face that i would have to pay for it. I had no money and i didn't even get an allowance so i didn't know how he expected me to pay him back. When he was gone, he locked the door again. So i put on a pair of his work boots and went out into the snow. He was watching TV so he didn't notice that i left. I hid in the shed and cried for a long time. I then realized that i still had my phone on me, i called my mom and explained what happened. She called off work and rushed home. For a long time i felt that i had no where i could go to feel safe, at home i was hated by my father and made to work all day. At school i had no friends and no one to talk to. I thought about killing myself a lot, and ill be honest with you here, i attempted it a few times as well. Eventually my mom had enough of my father and they got a divorce. Normally kids feel sad about their parents getting a divorce, i was glad. Although even after my parents divorced, i still had didn't have many friends at school. Sometimes i would make new friends but eventually they would walk out on me, this happened a lot through my freshman and sophomore years. I was constantly an outcast, eventually i stopped trying and i sat by myself at lunch. I did ditch a lot throughout high school and i kept getting put on truancy, it got so bad at one point that they put me on probation (basically if i missed school, i would go to juvi, i had to check in regularly with a probation officer) so my grades were always bad which kept making me feel as if i had no future but i honestly couldn't keep going to the same school with so many people who hated me, i couldn't take it anymore. So i decided that i would start doing online school the second semester of my sophomore year. Its currently my second semester of my junior year so all this was a long time ago. I no longer have depression but i still feel very alone a lot of the times, i am still an outcast.
It is an admiring thing that people can be more open isn't it? I read that entire wall of text. Hopefully everything is better now for you. Life itself is just like a rollercoaster.Me too, that shit is fucked up.
Many things can get "fucked up" in this world. :-X#trufact
It is an admiring thing that people can be more open isn't it? I read that entire wall of text. Hopefully everything is better now for you. Life itself is just like a rollercoaster.It's a lot better than it was but again, i still feel alone. I only have one real friend and i see him about once a month. I am fine though, i have plans to enlist in the airforce.
Once a month? Sometimes we all get too busy preoccupied with our own labors of a kind. Is locality an issue here? It is for me, time and time again my friends have moved all across the U.S.idk, that's just how it goes, we live relatively close, not walking distance but close enough but that's just how it is. When i do see him though he usually stays for more than one day, usually 3 or 4.
It seems like there is almost a pattern here. This being that a lot of the people here who seem to be social outcast, turn to online gaming (in this case NW) to fill the void. I'm not saying its bad (I mean shit I myself play NW) and its probably a natural human attraction seeing as so many previous people claim that they sort of do NW for social reasons or rather a distraction from something. I also find it intriguing that many of the victims (for lack of a better word) here find better homage on a computer from people they don't know rather than people they meet in real life. This is the most surprising part to me because I know for sure NW and FSE are crawling with trolls but it looks as if for the most part they (the scum of earth trolls) have left this topic to itself.It is sort of pathetic to say this but i probably would have killed myself if i didn't have gaming, because without it i wouldn't have a way out from my problems, for a long time this has been my only means of some sort of happiness, to fill the void.
Btw a lot of the shit on here is just disgusting and makes me feel the feels for those who are suffering.
It seems like there is almost a pattern here. This being that a lot of the people here who seem to be social outcast, turn to online gaming (in this case NW) to fill the void. I'm not saying its bad (I mean shit I myself play NW) and its probably a natural human attraction seeing as so many previous people claim that they sort of do NW for social reasons or rather a distraction from something. I also find it intriguing that many of the victims (for lack of a better word) here find better homage on a computer from people they don't know rather than people they meet in real life. This is the most surprising part to me because I know for sure NW and FSE are crawling with trolls but it looks as if for the most part they (the scum of earth trolls) have left this topic to itself.It is sort of pathetic to say this but i probably would have killed myself if i didn't have gaming, because without it i wouldn't have a way out from my problems, for a long time this has been my only means of some sort of happiness, to fill the void.
Btw a lot of the shit on here is just disgusting and makes me feel the feels for those who are suffering.
My problems seem so slim in comparison to everyone's.That's what this is for brutha :)
Though, I must say, I myself am one of those people that fill the social gap in their lives with gaming.
In truth, what has helped me more than gaming itself is YouTube and Twitch. Doing those is the best way of knowing people somehow care about what you do. Even if in small numbers.
So whenever there's a troll saying that I suck on YouTube or on Twitch I just ignore, because I know that if I WILL care it will destroy me. Sorry for the rant.
Still, my problems next to yours (in plural) are very small. But it's fun to make the problem bigger than it is ya know ;)My problems seem so slim in comparison to everyone's.That's what this is for brutha :)
Though, I must say, I myself am one of those people that fill the social gap in their lives with gaming.
In truth, what has helped me more than gaming itself is YouTube and Twitch. Doing those is the best way of knowing people somehow care about what you do. Even if in small numbers.
So whenever there's a troll saying that I suck on YouTube or on Twitch I just ignore, because I know that if I WILL care it will destroy me. Sorry for the rant.
My problems seem so slim in comparison to everyone's.
Though, I must say, I myself am one of those people that fill the social gap in their lives with gaming.
In truth, what has helped me more than gaming itself is YouTube and Twitch. Doing those is the best way of knowing people somehow care about what you do. Even if in small numbers.
So whenever there's a troll saying that I suck on YouTube or on Twitch I just ignore, because I know that if I WILL care it will destroy me. Sorry for the rant.
That's what I do! :)My problems seem so slim in comparison to everyone's.
Though, I must say, I myself am one of those people that fill the social gap in their lives with gaming.
In truth, what has helped me more than gaming itself is YouTube and Twitch. Doing those is the best way of knowing people somehow care about what you do. Even if in small numbers.
So whenever there's a troll saying that I suck on YouTube or on Twitch I just ignore, because I know that if I WILL care it will destroy me. Sorry for the rant.
As a general rule:
Wherever you go online there's going to be trolls. Just consider and/or chuckle internally about how pathetic their lives must be that they have to resort to insulting people over the internet for entertainment (and/or to make them feel better about themselves) and ignore them.
I spilled my glass of milk.IDF I'm so sorry
Have you visited your GP about it? Anything that's been going on for that long is generally worth taking a look at. It could just be something simple like anaemia, which is easy to rectify, and a quick blood test can check that.
Im sick for a year now and noone can tell me what it is. Most of the time im healthy as fuck on paper. But I feel weak / fatigued, got back ache and other bullshit. I had to quit my sports which I loved and was skilled in. Thats also pretty stupid because Ive done those a lot with my friends. I cant go to school often as well and thus the amount of social interaction is rather low though I still have some friends. Because of my backache I can also hardly play games anymore. I was depressive already but thats gotten much better. I highly doubt that anyone has got a solution but that was my story :)
I've been to various docs, including GPs and more specified ones. I've even been to the hospital for a week for a checkthrough. On paper im fit. In reality I'm not. But thank you I hope so as wellI recommend visiting a chiropractor if you haven't already, two years ago I was vomiting 3-5 times a day, not being able to attend school and starting a lot of anxiety for me. No one could explain why I was vomiting and feeling so bad, suddenly after visiting the chiropractor and getting my neck and back readjusted (my neck was about 3 inches out of place due to a basketball injury from years before) It stopped. The chiropractor told me something was most likely up with my nerves. A lot of doctors and health experts do not believe in chiropractic healing but lemme tell you, it works! Another person I knew had issues where her stomach would make weird noises very loudly, she couldn't attend school because it was too much of a distraction for people around her. No one could explain what was going out, turned out it was something with her nervous system, got something re-adjusted and It all went away.
I've been to various docs, including GPs and more specified ones. I've even been to the hospital for a week for a checkthrough. On paper im fit. In reality I'm not. But thank you I hope so as well
The finest internet doctors in all the land gather here on this day for their annual medical malpractice and misdiagnosis convention.
Hippocrates would be proud!
Prognosis:
Listen to songs
Best cure for any depression or sadness
If you listen to music other than awful dubstep and electro shit it's true.
If you listen to music other than awful dubstep and electro shit it's true.R A P M U S I C L E T S G O B O Y S
Prognosis:
Listen to songs
Best cure for any depression or sadness
I wish that was true
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I ate tuna today. It made me very sad. Now I can't stop thinking of those poor cows that have lost their lives just for my can of tuna.Interesting. I ate tuna too. Illuminati Confirmed?
I ate tuna today. It made me very sad. Now I can't stop thinking of those poor cows that have lost their lives just for my can of tuna.Damnit olafson, think of all the bees those cows ate just to make your tuna, their lives were lost for no reason.
I ate tuna today. It made me very sad. Now I can't stop thinking of those poor cows that have lost their lives just for my can of tuna.woke up today seeing that there is still no news about BCoF, now i am sad.
These must have been two very sad years for you.I ate tuna today. It made me very sad. Now I can't stop thinking of those poor cows that have lost their lives just for my can of tuna.woke up today seeing that there is still no news about BCoF, now i am sad.
#firstworldproblemsI ate tuna today. It made me very sad. Now I can't stop thinking of those poor cows that have lost their lives just for my can of tuna.woke up today seeing that there is still no news about BCoF, now i am sad.
Dear FSE,Wuts a BCoF
please give us some info on BCoF, anything will do, just give us something! If you do, i'll stop being sad.
Your dearest love
-Everyone in the NW community
I think it stands for bad cough.
The realm of the flying squirrel? :OI think it stands for bad cough.
No no no, it's an ancient myth from a strange realm known as the Netherlands.
It makes me happy that i haven't played games for days. My addiction is floating away. Finally.relief.gif
I saw this thread and i was like NAHHHH, but then i started to read some of the stuff people posted and how open a lot of you guys are being and i truly admire that.Hey Gluk I just want to let you know man, you're not the only one. I know how you feel and I feel really bad that anything of those sorts occurred. I can relate. When I was little, my family had a very hard time collecting income. My mom was new to the United States and had poor English, resulting in less jobs open for her. My dad however was in the Navy and would leave for months on end. My family usually worried about where our next meal would come from. We often had to have friends deliver their school lunches in order to keep us fed. When my dad came back, he began to start a very bad gambling addiction. He would often leave the house for a couple days and come back with empty pockets. Because of his addiction, my brothers and I lost any funds we had left for our investment into college etc. My dad started to gain really bad anger problems after his gambling addiction. There were multiple times that we would grab me and throw me into my room. When I was around the age of 7, I noticed by dad playing an online poker game. I asked him why he was playing it and told my mother. He then proceeded to go to my room get on top of me, restrain me and yell in my face. I was often terrified of him after. Fast forward to August of 2009, me and my brother are sent to Florida to live with my father until my mom can finish selling our previous house. Everything seemed to be fine, my dads gambling habits seemed to disappear and life looked great. A few months later, my mom shows un-expectantly at my fathers house while he was at work, telling me that my Father was planning on divorcing her and getting rid of us by sending us back to Texas. As a child I was heartbroken, i loved my father and still hoped for the family to work. Now fast forward to 2012. My depression stage had set in and I was not social at all. I would often keep to myself and play video games in order to avoid the real world. Everything that happened in my childhood lead up to that stage. I had actually almost killed myself on purpose. I tried to hang myself buy my mom walked in before I could really do damage. I began seeing a psychiatrist about my mental state and had routine sessions with him daily. On the week before thanksgiving 2012, my dad was found in his apartment dead, after being missing for about 3 days. This absolutely crushed me and my depressive state began to appear again. The last message I will ever get to read was over facebook.
Alright so here it goes
My father used to be a drug addict, any money he made was spent on drugs. Some nights you could tell he was high as a kite. Other times, when we were low on money and he couldn't get his fix you could see his anger. There were times that he would hit me over small shit, i don't remember what they were though. There was one time that i do distinctly remember. We got into an argument, i was sick and stayed home from school but my father refused to believe i was sick, he thought i was playing hookie so he wanted me to work all day, shoveling snow, cleaning the house, ect. I told him that i was sick and shouldn't be doing anything and that all i wanted to do was go back to bed, i told him i would do it when i was better. He was convinced and started to get very angry. He began to come at me, i knew that that meant he was going to start hitting me, so i ran. I ran to the back porch and closed the door. He said fine and locked the door. Know that this was the middle of winter and i was sick, i had nothing but a hoodie, shirt and pajamas. He locked me out there for an hour, eventually i started to bang on the door. Nothing. I then picked up a broom and started hitting the wooden end of it against the door. I thought that if i made enough noise that he would eventually get annoyed enough to let me in. Turns out i hit the end of the broom against the door so hard that it put a hole in the door. When he saw this, he came out and starting punching my chest, he forced me onto the floor and screamed in my face that i would have to pay for it. I had no money and i didn't even get an allowance so i didn't know how he expected me to pay him back. When he was gone, he locked the door again. So i put on a pair of his work boots and went out into the snow. He was watching TV so he didn't notice that i left. I hid in the shed and cried for a long time. I then realized that i still had my phone on me, i called my mom and explained what happened. She called off work and rushed home. For a long time i felt that i had no where i could go to feel safe, at home i was hated by my father and made to work all day. At school i had no friends and no one to talk to. I thought about killing myself a lot, and ill be honest with you here, i attempted it a few times as well. Eventually my mom had enough of my father and they got a divorce. Normally kids feel sad about their parents getting a divorce, i was glad. Although even after my parents divorced, i still had didn't have many friends at school. Sometimes i would make new friends but eventually they would walk out on me, this happened a lot through my freshman and sophomore years. I was constantly an outcast, eventually i stopped trying and i sat by myself at lunch. I did ditch a lot throughout high school and i kept getting put on truancy, it got so bad at one point that they put me on probation (basically if i missed school, i would go to juvi, i had to check in regularly with a probation officer) so my grades were always bad which kept making me feel as if i had no future but i honestly couldn't keep going to the same school with so many people who hated me, i couldn't take it anymore. So i decided that i would start doing online school the second semester of my sophomore year. Its currently my second semester of my junior year so all this was a long time ago. I no longer have depression but i still feel very alone a lot of the times, i am still an outcast.
Your a great guy still through all that Asian! Keep it up!I hope she gets better :)
On another note my gf just got back from inpatient! :D
With every year that came to passIt's very sunny suddently in Minnesota
More clouds appear until the sky went black
And now there's
No sunlight,
No sunlight.
And now there's
No sunlight,
No sunlight anymore.
With every year that came to pass
More clouds appear until the sky went black
And now there's
No sunlight,
No sunlight.
And now there's
No sunlight,
No sunlight anymore.
8) 8)
It's very sunny suddently in Minnesota
well my cat died last yearMy Dog died last year too :(
So I thought on and off about posting here, but I think I will. Thanks Asian and Gluk for being open :)Oh man, I couldn't imagine about having a parent that had forgotten everything about their family.. My condolences to you sir. My step-dad is in his mid 70's and I worry about him too as well. Hes working well into old age to support my mom and to send me to college. People can be awesome.
So lets begin about 3 years ago i'm pretty sure. It was a Wednesday in school. The night before I stopped at my moms/her boyfriends house so I could pick something up for school. After that I went back to my dads house blah blah blah. (parents are divorced) Well during that time at school, it was about 1:00 and I get pulled out of class by one of the office people and sent down to the office, My dad and sister were there and we left instantly. I was pretty scared. Once we were in the road, my dad told me that my mom was sick. I asked if she is ok, and he said he doesn't know. From there I was in what seemed was the longest car ride of my life. Once we got to the hospital I saw her boyfriend there, she was unconscious and her boyfriend told us that her liver failed (this isnt exactly what happened but its the shorted down version) The doctor didn't totally know how it happened but they basically though she swallowed a large amount of Advil the night before, Which was crazy to me because my mom would never do that. (I still dont know what happened) Family was called and the doctor said she probably wasn't going to make it. After 1 day they decided to transfer her to a bigger hospital that had more ability to hopefully help her. The transfer happened and she was at the new hospital. After about 2 more days of nothing, that night we went to the hospital again like every night before that. The doctor said if something doesnt happened she will die overnight. She was very low on the liver transplant list and we lost hope. But they found a liver. That night I remember staying at the hospital all night during her transplant, I was so happy that she was going to be better again if it went well, which it did for a bit. There was tons of smaller things that went wrong after the first transplant but there is no need to go all into that. well from there we had to wait, I cant even remember how many days but one day she finally woke up. She couldn't talk cause there was one of those throat respirator things but her eyes were very yellow. The doctor brought us all into a room and told us that she lost mostly all of her memory, Some chemical from the liver or something went up into her brain and took out the memory side of things. She didnt remember anyone. So from there we took many steps to get her better. She went from the hospital for a long time, to a therapeutic center and she was getting better every day. But then it started to slow down to where she is today. She cant live on her own, she takes pills everyday, She gets words confused and she walks funny. She is Intellectual disabled and I have to live with that. She now lives up north with her boyfriend who has mainly been taking care of her for the past 3 years. without him there would be no way she would have made it this far. We tried to jog her memory but in my opinion its all gone and she is learning about us from what we told her after the transplant. There is a lot more to this story but I thought I would put it here. I would say there is more wrong with her but that is enough detail. Another problem I have is that i'm 16, my dad is 66. I honestly worry about him every day because he is old and I don't want anything to happen to him. Idk I guess I should worry but i always do.
This is just a bit of what I have had to deal with and what haunts me every day. I have dealt with depression and all that but i prefer to forget about that stuff and move on.
anyway thanks for reading all this. Hopefully this has given some people hope and stuff like that. If you ever need help or need to talk add/message me on steam. Sorry for any spelling/grammar errors :P Sorry the story is all over the place too.
https://steamcommunity.com/id/L00mon/
I've lost connection with my mom for obvious reasons.
I feel like an outcast at home & in school for not being able to do simple tasks.
I don't talk to my mom since she's very mentally ill.
I can't handle simple tasks since I'm depressed, tierd & feel weak all the time.
I don't talk to my mom since she's very mentally ill.
I can't handle simple tasks since I'm depressed, tierd & feel weak all the time.
Sounds like 30% of swedish people your age tbh.
We have all been through a dark, patchy spot in our lives as youths, but it is something you get through. When i was there i was just happy i realised that being in a positive state of mind makes things so much easier.Exactly.
*snip*Tiki, i dont understand what was wrong with that. It was just a recording of why you shouldnt commit suicide, in fact i teared up a bit when i listened to it.
Don't.
Where's the happy in this thread guys? Happiness is an emotion too you know! :)
I've got plenty of happy right now. Finally getting another chance with a certain girl I thought I lost years ago. :)
Sounds like a Dutch problem.
Long live Geert Wilders.
I'm much the same way myself, probably the reason it never worked out oh so many years ago, trying more now to step up to the plate instead of just hoping for the best like usual.Where's the happy in this thread guys? Happiness is an emotion too you know! :)
I've got plenty of happy right now. Finally getting another chance with a certain girl I thought I lost years ago. :)
Right on, man.
I tend to be overly shy around women that i'm attracted to, for fear that any flirting might be misconstrued as creepy advances; which they are subjected to on a daily basis by majority of the male populous.
I tend to wait for women to make the first advance. Obviously this isn't a very effective strategy. Worse most women haven't fully rejected gender roles (yet), and assume men will initiate flirting if they're interested.
I honestly wonder how much the phenomenon of the "creep" has been amplified due to internet communication. There was a time when you had two options, phone or in person and clearly in order to get a phone number you had to talk to the person.
Now, it seems like everyone is so scared to talk to each other. And I mean everyone to the point where they build walls that even they don't necessarily desire. The point in all this that I really enjoy is once you fuck with these walls in mass, like giving people the opportunity to meet freely. And, this can be anything from organizing a sports team, to an in person dinner this stuff just evaporates into thin air.
Nobody on FSE likes me. :'(I do
I don't.Nobody on FSE likes me. :'(I do
;) ;) ;) ;):-* :-* :-* :-* :-*
;) ;) ;)
I don't.Nobody on FSE likes me. :'(I do
I'm much the same way myself, probably the reason it never worked out oh so many years ago, trying more now to step up to the plate instead of just hoping for the best like usual.Where's the happy in this thread guys? Happiness is an emotion too you know! :)
I've got plenty of happy right now. Finally getting another chance with a certain girl I thought I lost years ago. :)
Right on, man.
I tend to be overly shy around women that i'm attracted to, for fear that any flirting might be misconstrued as creepy advances; which they are subjected to on a daily basis by majority of the male populous.
I tend to wait for women to make the first advance. Obviously this isn't a very effective strategy. Worse most women haven't fully rejected gender roles (yet), and assume men will initiate flirting if they're interested.
I honestly wonder how much the phenomenon of the "creep" has been amplified due to internet communication. There was a time when you had two options, phone or in person and clearly in order to get a phone number you had to talk to the person.
Now, it seems like everyone is so scared to talk to each other. And I mean everyone to the point where they build walls that even they don't necessarily desire. The point in all this that I really enjoy is once you fuck with these walls in mass, like giving people the opportunity to meet freely. And, this can be anything from organizing a sports team, to an in person dinner this stuff just evaporates into thin air.