A year and a half ago, I made a post announcing my departure of the community
. Before this, I had taken two (short) breaks but I never felt the need to make a public statement about neither of them. This time appeared as a bit different in my eyes as I was somehow really convinced that it marked an end to my implication on NW, regiment and administrative wise (I knew I would never cease reading and posting on FSE, would have to take the forum down for that). I know some people knew I would be back, I always considered this a possibility even though an unlikely one but it never really bothered as I have seen people 'quitting the game' before me, and coming back within two weeks, and I never had the arrogance to think it would somehow not apply to me.
Five months ago, I helped some longtime friends hosting an event for the cavalry community
and even more recently, I got convinced into joining the 17th by some even longer-term friends. Both of these didn't work out for several reasons (a good half of it being on myself, ngl) but at the very least, they brought back within me a bit of this fire which I had felt missing early 2018. I figured out there is no point in hiding it. I want to contribute again, no matter the way. I don't think I will find a new home as good as the 17th anytime soon so, for now, I will probably focus on other aspects of the community which I still enjoy.
I have been grateful that ever since I started to be involved again in the FSE NW activity and in-game, I have not been served the usual 'But I thought you retired?!' and other of that stuff. People probably know I am quite the susceptible type but I reckon I also always had a privileged position in this community. I am not sure to deserve of it, I have been quite inconstant with most of the stuff I have involved myself with but I am trying to work on it. For that reason, I am extremely happy that Shadey reached me to organize this tournament as I feel confident hosting an event alongside someone who possesses pretty much all the qualities a co-host could dream of.
So I guess that's sort of official now. I am actively back in the NW community (was I ever gone?). That will make some people happy, some other a bit less. No matter what, I have always considered working for this community as a privilege, not a given, and I intend to keep this mindset going forward.