Every night I go to bed, I am thinking about that RGL loss.
Every night, I'm sitting alone, thinking about what I did wrong.
Every night, I'm thinking about what I could have done to make us win.
Every night, I'm cutting myself for not carrying us to the win.
Every night, I have nightmares about it.
Every night, I wake up screaming from that loss.
That day pushes me to do what I do, to wake up every morning at 5 am, hit up Pub Duels NA, and practice, all out everyday, every rep, every duel, has a purpose, to make me stronger than the day before. People tell me all the time, "oh MATT only reason you are the GOAT is because you were god gifted, you were born with talent". They don't know what the fuck I have gone through. They wouldn't know what hard work is if it hit them in the face. Yo these are those same guys to go "mane I wish I could be a pro NW player, I would do anything for it", then you see them go off and go to college/school, or go out to parties with friends instead of getting reps in on NA GF. They haven't learned about patience and sacrifice yet and they never will.
Hell, I have to work even harder than everyone else too, everyone at my level is cheating, the pro scene, everyones using anything they can to perform better, be it adderall, autoblock, autofeint, auto ping spiker, s key enhancer, you name it, everyone will be using it. And me being the only clean one, the only player whos not on stimulants + autoblocking + skeying and feint chambering, makes me have to train harder to be at the level I'm at. Even low tier melee'ers are using that shit nowadays, like maccle and nappy.
Even worse the bribery and politics are rampant, in that OG Mudborne tournament the 3eVolt bribed the officials to rig the bracket so two 3evolt members could get to the finals easily, and just split the winnings. The swamp of NW needs to be drained.
