That's rough man
My depressing stuff:
My dad is the kinda guy who doesn't show any emotions and is pretty tough. I was raised in that same environment, except that my mom helped me develop emotion and shit. I never show anything, I've never had a best friend, I never talk to anyone about my thoughts, I never cry, I handle everything in my head and that's where it stays, I've told only one person my inner most thoughts and memories, and she shit on me (too nice).. It really tortures me sometimes because of how much I think about and process shit. There's things my family have no idea about, and that I will probably take to my grave. I don't feel close to my parents. I love em, but going to college and shit has made them seem even more distant. It's killing me though, I feel so alone and like I can't confide anything with anyone. I'm what you would call a legitimate "nice guy" so I've had horrible luck with the ladies (no fedora or neckbeard here btw). So basically Im frustrated and tired of having to keep everything in, and having to deal with girls who have been damaged by fuck bois and don't trust any guys now. I've met some really amazing people at school though, and have had many experiences that I wouldn't trade for anything.
Rant done.
So thank you NW for providing a distraction from all this. My parents don't understand that and I don't want to explain it, but when you over process things as much as I do, you need something to give your mind a break